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My name is Jenna; I live in Rhode Island.

Here are some things that I'm interested in: Love, life, music, religion, literature, philosophy, cosmetology, the universe, existence, communication, food, coffee/tea, art, health and wellness, cinema, astrology, the human soul, numerology, expression, body modification, peace, nature/human nature..

Second blog.
Facebook.

It’s been cold lately.

Many things, people, and places have been that way; it is winter after all. And people have always acted without reason.
I’ve been doing all I can to enjoy myself with and/or without external substances/sources. I don’t really have much to say, actually. My days have sort of wound together. I can’t remember what happened when, I just know that it did. School takes up 60% of my day, 30% I’m at work, and I have 10% of my time to myself, and 5% of that 10% I’m sleeping… it’s a bit oppressive at times. I’m disappointed that I don’t have much to look back on the past few months according to this blog. I used to update religiously about every day that came and went. But I don’t have that sort of time anymore. I can’t vividly remember anything, it’s awful.
Currently I’m single, and I’m sure it’s better off this way. I feel that at this time in my life I’m much better off alone. I need to concentrate on everything going on around me. Two part-time jobs (4 hours a day), and school full time (9 hours a day) leaves me with very little time for anyone else. I don’t have the time to start anything new, or to get to know someone the way I would like to.
Currently I’m living with my friend Jasmine and her family, again.

I look forward to getting my cosmetology license and working in either Providence or commuting to Boston. The thought of being entirely independent is really exciting, and it’s what keeps me motivated. I want to move away, it doesn’t have to be that far. I just want a space I can call my own. I’ve never even had my own bed! I want to decorate, and clean, and buy myself gifts every once in a while. I want to own things. I know it’s slightly materialist, and everything society wants me to want… but I can’t help it. I want to be successful and know that I did it on my own. Then, I want to meet a charming beautiful boy who wants what I want. Who’s happy, free, motivated, wholesome, loving, and spiritual. I want nothing less than extraordinary.

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