February 2009
35 posts
Sends your words past your lips, or keeps them...
It’s like a full circle, or it could be a full circle.
The only difference is… I’m not being forced to choose.
I just can’t believe that happened, you know?
And it’s not like I technically had anything to do with it.
It was just my boyfriend, and whom I’m honestly starting to consider as my best friend.
I just can’t believe how fast things happen....
January 2009
37 posts
Lend a hand and break the chains of regularity...
I had one of those days where you feel like your clothes don’t fit right.
I just felt tangled in myself all day, like I couldn’t get comfortable, as if my skin didn’t fit me the way it usually does.
Nothing really bad happened, it was just the usual, but it was still terrible.
I don’t know, I want to go to sleep and not feel so tired tomorrow.
We’re now starting...
In many ways you're the halo that keeps my spirit...
Today it happened again.
That love feeling.
The one that you know for sure isn’t just that lust crap that everyone talks about.
I mean, clearly I do love my boyfriend of almost 9 months, but often times I don’t get that feeling when we kiss, or maybe even the thought of “Wow, I really do love you.”
Today it wasn’t the usual ‘love’ as in “I love...
In many ways I'm the burden that divides us from...
I’m so done with this week.
Exams have been making me a stressed out nervous wreck.
My emotions have all of a sudden run wild.
I’ve been analyzing every aspect of my life some how turning it into something negative.
I really don’t have it that bad, I’m just a whiny little ungrateful bitch.
I’ve really hated myself lately.
I’ve been turning cold towards...
Breathe life into my lungs.
When you think of Summer, you think of freedom, and happiness.
When you think of Spring, you think of living life, and renewal.
When you think of Autumn, you think of colors, and change.
But when you think of Winter, even though they say it’s filled with holiday spirit and joy, they’re wrong.
Winter is lonely and cold.
Depressed and alone.
It’s just gray and lifeless.
I...
I like to think that everything is meant to be.
We all refuse to accept the possibility that our lives might actually not have meaning.
We just throw in all these things like religion, and feelings, and goals just to give ourselves a point. Just to make ourselves feel worth something. Distracting ourselves looking forward to the unknown.
For all we know, this is nothing, all of this in the end will mean nothing.
If it weren’t for all...
Because if seeing is believing, then believe that...
Teenagers are so self destructive.
We do all these things to fit in, to make ourselves feel better, to make others happy.
When we’re actually going at this whole ‘life’ thing, the completely wrong way.
We know it, but we’ve been taught not to care.
No one else does, we shouldn’t either.
People don’t realize how much it sucks to be a kid, just a kid....
Plot and make me the lover you wanted.
It’s sad how people claim they fell out of love, when really we fall in and out of love all the time.
But we as people have to have some sort of faith in each other, try to fix what’s broken, and make things work.
It’s sad seeing people break up.
When you see people go through that you automatically think of your relationship.
And how much you love that person.
Just the...
Ahaha.
Ryan: Why are you blowing your um... fingers.
Me: Because they're wet.
Ryan: With...what?
Me: With nail polish.
“Anger is just a cowardly extension of sadness. It’s a lot easier to be angry at...”
– Tom Gates
The floor is more fitting for my face.
I don’t know who I am, really.
I’m undefined and uncertain.
Usually the people who are completely sure of themselves are the same people you know never question why they do things, they’re usually the same people you know never take a long look at their life and question why things are they way they are.
Their ignorance is truly what works for them.
But at the same time, I...
The more we move ahead the more we're stuck in...
I sometimes wonder if I’m actually happy, or even content.
But me, being myself, I should at least know how I’m feeling.
I don’t even have to know why I’m feeling that way, I should just know what it is that I’m feeling in the first place.
I wonder if I’m just content because I can’t be anything else.
When I say anything else, I mean a negative...
"If I could I would shrink myself and sink through...
Today sucked pretty hard.
Yesterday I left school early due to the fact that I felt dizzy, couldn’t concentrate, and my stomach hurt.
Truth is, I had my period.
But of course the nurse didn’t know that.
Anyhow, after school after 6 hours of sleep I took my pill around 7:00 for that dumb infection I had last week, and a half hour later I started breaking out in hives.
So, I took...
For those of you who read this garbage.
I thank you, and I appreciate it.
But what I’m not exactly fond of is when I hear people talking to other people about what I wrote.
Especially when it’s decently negative.
This journal, unlike my livejournal is more so for me than anyone else.
If you’re offended, I’m sorry.
If you don’t agree with what I say, I’m sorry.
If you’re willing to take...
Every plan is a tiny prayer to father time.
It’s now officially 2009.
Nothing really feels different, besides knowing it’s a new year.
Other than that one would never know.
They say that it’s a new beginning but as we all know, that’s bull.
I mean, if school restared every new year that would make sense.
You’d feel refreshed, maybe even renewed, as if you could actually start over.
Not completely, but as...